Time heals all wounds after its wounded all heels!

Wow its been two weeks since I last posted.. confessing my struggles.. well.. what a difference a week or two makes....

I feel back on track.. back in the game... on top of it all...

This last week I have been concentrating on LIVING.. and keeping emotional eating at bay... I have been meditating using the Qi Gong techniques I have learned from  Gabriel Method Qi Gong and I have also been using inspiration from Brian Killian who produces the Gabriel Method Fitness program and also been juicing more and eating more live food.. with all this ADDING I finally feel back on top of life, coping with the blips without eating the Junk Foods and  feeling blue.

Life is still stressful at time; finances can still be erratic but I am still focusing on Abundant thoughts and Abundant beliefs - living generously and God is really honouring this as money seems to come in right when we need it!!.. 

Life to me is about consistently moving forward even when it feels like I have come to a standstill.. we need those STOP moments to regroup and to assess when things need to be changed or developed. 

Never let a Blip in the road sabotage all the great work LIVING you have already achieved!

Living and not being controlled

I am sorry I have not blogged for a while.  I have been working on LIVING instead of being overly obsessive about food, Gabriel Method and the semantics of Nutrition. 

I have a huge knowledge base already of what I 'should' be doing and I have to trust myself now to KNOW the right thing to do day in and day out.

I have had a huge liberation from feeling the need to actually Juice daily (I am still drinking Green Juice every day though) once I trusted that I could make a batch of Juice that would last a couple of days.  This has let me off the leash for some freedom to get on with life and enjoy it.

I have been able to eat out with my family and "GM" up my meals by carrying Chia seeds with me.   I also carry my own "sugar" blend to sweeten my green teas and occasional long black coffee..  Its basically Half Coconut Palm Sugar granules and Half Xylitol granules.  Its a really nice blend as its not overly sweet but it adds flavour to what can be bitterness from tea and coffee.  It also means I use hardly any milk these days.

Life is finally finding a balance between obsessively being concerned about the food I put in my body and being a mother to my kids and a wife to my husband.

Sadly these things never seemed to blend well.  I found it hard to be focused on ME and others at the same time.  Now its not just about ME ME ME its about just plain old BEING.

Its ok to have  lazy day.. Its ok to have some chocolate at 10pm watching NCIS.  I choose to only buy 85% organic chocolate.. its expensive $4 for 100g but I find I'm happy with just a cube or two and I nibble it.. the small sugar content doesn't play mind games for me.. and I'm happy to say I don't crave it.  I just like to have that rich cacao taste in my mouth.. 

My veg garden is coming along nicely with crops now starting to produce harvest.  I am currently enjoying my spinach and harvest it when its small and tender.  It looks rather like Warrigal greens (which I'm hoping to find a natural supply locally I can forage)  I have harvested several tasty radish and enjoying new ways of pepping up a salad.  I have a healthy herb garden that includes:  Parsley, sage, Rosemary, Thyme, Oregano, Basil, Mint, Stevia, Lemon Balm, Self Heal, Garlic Chives and wormwood. I am growing celery from shop bought celery hearts.  I love that we can grow veg from the left overs of ones purchased.

The other veg we are growing are Cherry Tomatoes, Black Russian Tomato, Chilli,  Fennel, Celeriac, Kale, Orange and Purple Carrots, leeks, shallots, pumpkin and we have a watermelon plant in flower (but not sure it will produce fruit) Passion Fruit, banana's, pineapple, oranges, white Mulberry, strawberries and raspberries.  

Not all are producing right now.. but we are very proud that we are developing a garden that is live giving.  

I walked!

I walked for exercise this morning.. I am so proud of myself. 

 Anyone who knows me knows I have lived the life of a disabled person for a very long time.  At 16 I had a total hip replacement after many years of suffering from Perthes Disease.    

My hip has defied logic and medicine.  Every Orthopaedic surgeon I meet are dumb struck that I have a 25 yr old hip replacement that looks as healthy and perfect as the day it was done.  

February 2012 I thought my mobility was over when I had a slip on mud in the school car park.  I virtually did the splits and heard a very loud CRACK in my left hip.  I was in a lot of pain and taken by specialist ambulance to the PA hospital in Brisbane.

Put on morphine and CT scans and Xrays were taken.  Specialists were fearing I had broken my hip and I went into a real panic and grieving; thinking my life as a young mother would be taken away from me.. that my kids would forever have a mum in a wheel chair.

The scan returned COMPLETELY CLEAR.. the specialists were amazed.. Diagnosis was that I had severely ripped my Adductor Muscle..  It was the most painful thing I have ever done. Long term prognosis was unknown, and the worst case scenario was given to me to prepare for.  Never walking unaided again!

Three days in hospital on morphine and other pain medication and a hospital Physiotherapist trying to get me mobile enough to go home.   I left hospital using a wheeled Walking frame.  A geriatric at 39 was no life for me to look forward to.  I went to Rehab every week and was blessed with an amazing Physiotherapist who found me fascinating and rose to the challenge to help me.. beyond just the adductor.  They felt my slip has been contributed to by the fact I had a dropped, twisted and tilted pelvic and 3 compressed discs in my lower spine! (L3-5).  I had two lovely Physiotherapist Manually manipulate my pelvis back into some type of normal position (not fun when two grown men are virtually sitting on your pelvis pushing it and you are not medicated and fully awake!!)

Over the weeks/months of adjustments, manipulations  hydrotherapy and massages the Adductor healed and I strengthened my leg and endurance.  I was eventually discharged from Rehab told to use at the very least a walking stick and if uneven or slippery ground or long distance walking I was to use my walking frame.  

And this was the life for me. Until I went to Kiama in March 2013.

In Kiama I was at the Jon Gabriel retreat.  Jon gave us an amazing 3 day retreat of learning about different aspects of health, digestions, our spiritual ability and our brain etc.  One of the seminars I found the MOST challenging of all, was about our bodies ability to HEAL itself naturally.

I cried so long and hard that day... could I REALLY live the life of a fully able person just by CHOOSING to and just by nourishing my body correctly and visualising Health and Vitality.

SO so so many years of doctors telling me I was destined for nothing.  Life never had really begun for me.. back as a 12 yr old girl first losing her ability to walk after a slip on mud impacted my already damaged hip .. suddenly not being able to walk.. then at the age of 39 almost repeating history.. but actually THAT fall almost seems like it was coming full circle and the END of the life I had lived so far.. disabled, fat, fearful and lonely.

What led me to Gabriel Method in May 2012 is another story I will tell one day.. but my mobility was still being rehabilitated.. and my mood til that point was very low.. depressed  and i was on Prozac, high strength Voltaren and the occasional Morphine etc.  but once I started listening to visualisations my life changed.. my physiotherapist saw a change.. a passion to be great! A determination to one day Ride a Bike!

I started taking Omega 3 suppliments and suddenly i no longer had pain.. so I stopped the morphine and voltaren.. and as my confidence grew I suddenly one day said NO MORE to the Prozac and that too was gone.. all because of Omega 3.

So now nearly a year later.. and suddenly believing in myself at last.. and believing in the power of this God Crafted body to heal itself and renew. Every cell one by one can be healed, duplicated and renewed.. I decided to take on the challenge.  If this be true then I have to give my body EVERY advantage I can.. 

I learned that processed foods made my cells rigid and not duplicate correctly.  Processed food make the vital hormones that regulate blood sugar, fat storage etc be ignored by the brain.  

The chain of command in my body was in ruin.  The ONLY way forward was to deal with my Digestion < to me this is the true nervous system of our body.. without proper digestion our body can not get the vital nutrients for cell health.. My body is 100% cellular.. its simple.. crap food = crap cells.   I have a Gastric band that was suppose to save my life but was KILLING IT.

My mind is also the other factor.  Crap food = Crap attitude.  

I'm now feeding my Cells LIVE HEALTHY VITAL FOODS.. that create this body every day.  They feed, heal and mobilise.. 

So.. that leaves TODAY.. after 11 months on the Gabriel Method.. I just did a 1km walk without painkillers, without a walking frame, without a walking stick.. just me and my legs.. my beautiful amazing clever legs.

THANK YOU GOD FOR AMAZING BEAUTIFUL CLEVER LEGS THAT GET US FROM A - B

Its a process and it takes time!

Today I'm feeling very chilled.  I think its because my new lifestyle is becoming routine and I can just settle into it without fear of failure.

Its liberating to finally be LIVING and LOVING.

It happens when you stop fighting.  You know you have found the right thing for you when its no longer a battle.  I never understood that when I heard others say it.. but I FINALLY understand. 

Its a process and it takes time.

I have ZERO cravings for my old Toxic life and I don't feel deprived or left out.

I'm loving living Processed Food Free.  I'm loving eating LIVE food.  Drinking a fresh veg Juice every day.  Taking my Probiotics, digestive enzyme and Omega 3!  

My body is thanking me by being PAIN FREE!  Parts of me are shrinking and Im finding the new me underneath this layer of Toxin Storage!

The Power is within

I am reflecting on how my journey must always reflect and honour God, my Father in heaven.

Today is Good Friday and I'm mindful of what happened to Jesus.

It brings to mind that he CHOSE to be there. Yes there were evil men involved but he CHOSE to be there, suffering, persecuted and dying on a crucifix.

For me this journey is learning about my own Power of Choice.. the power within me. The God given ability to choose and change.

Our bodies are so incredibly complex in the way they work, the way cells listen to each other (or don't listen sometimes) The amazing way that every single cell in our body DIES and gets replaced within a 2 yr period. This is amazing and empowering knowledge.. because this means I DO have some control over my own body..

For so long I felt a victim to the cruel way my body has enjoyed storing Fat.. but actually now I MARVEL and its clever way of doing it.

Fat is not my enemy.. its a God created process of keeping me alive.. but sadly my own actions, thoughts, deeds etc have caused it turn like a toxic weed.

What I mean by all this and how this applies to my life today is..

Food should be about assisting our cells to reproduce. Food should be about keeping our Mind clear and our bodies functioning at its BEST so that we can have amazing relationships with other humans and this world. To create the BEST experience demonstrating the complex nature of God.

I feel so in tune with life now. Before I was walking around in a blind haze of negative thinking and reactionary actions drugged up on man made toxic food "like" substances.

Now I live purposefully!.

Today I planted some beans, spinach and lemon grass seeds to add to my ever growing garden of life giving plants.

I ate 4 raspberries and 2 strawberries straight from the bush and they tasted amazing!.

Its just the small things at first but as you gain momentum life changes fast like the down hill slope on a Rollercoaster. If you go fast enough the uphills are so much easier!

As we go on to celebrate Easter and the power it gives us, lets thank God for making us Unique and Complex creations that never get bored by the amount we have to learn about ourself and life!

21 Days of success (my post on the Gabriel Method Forum)

I had the privilege of going to Jons Kiama Retreat this month and it was a profound turning point in my journey.

Too many things happened at retreat to share in one post but about 2/3s through I suddenly changed INSIDE. The Qi energy of the whole retreat was transforming me holistically ..

On the Thursday night we watch Hungry for Change DVD and I think this was a huge turning point for me – as after watching that DVD my change started with me singing 2 Karaoke at the local Hotel when a couple of the GM coaches and retreat delegates and I decided to let our hair down. Their encouragement made me fearless to get up and sing in front of a LOT of strangers who lets say were all jolly on alcohol (though our group were sober). I come across as out going but had learned to be shy in many situations.. but I had no one to hide behind this time..

That night I was a new me emerging like a caterpillar coming out of a cocoon a new creature.

It was liberating and empowering to be there.

Since the first full day on retreat (Wednesday) I had been eating LIVE foods and a daily juice.. I was visualising alone and in a group. I was “eating the sun” I was around people who shared their vitality.. it was reinforced several times it takes 21 days to establish a new habit and I came home determined to do just that. So.. I got back my home in Brisbane with a solid foundation to go on with.

I have had daily LIVE juice and greens, I have honoured my body with nutrition and I have fed my mind with healthy mental attitudes.

I naturally stopped eating Gluten (and processed carbs) I naturally reduced my dairy intake to just cheese, a splash of milk in coffee and occasional yoghurt and I have ZERO cravings for processed crap or sugary vices!

I have surrounded myself with a cheering squad of inspiring people who keep me humble and encourage me. Who hear my heart and dont crush me.

Its the CORE of GM that changes you holistically and for me I finally found my Mojo.

I dont weigh myself on scales as these represent and Old diet head that I am ridding.. and as one challenge goes a new challenge surfaces so my new challenge is BODY SHAPE.

Parts of my body seem to be emptying of excess fat cells at a rate of knots and as a SUPER morbidly obese personal this is leaving me a little spooked. I have been battling physically with skin flaps that could create a cyclone if I wave at you too long!!! So.. my mind has gone into overload today worrying about EXCESS SKIN.

I have realised today that my body is feeling like its being sucked from the inside out and I realised my visualising has been lacking that physical acknowledgement of what its be replaced with! My only answer to that is LOVE. I have to find a way that Im not LOSING weight but Im REPLACING it with something more life giving and fulfilling.

I dont have to be a saggy baggy elephant.. and Im now going to devise a meditation or visualisation where I teach my skin to shrink.. because its no longer needed. I might have to do something symbolic like rubbing rose oil in and using imaginary healing hands to thank my skin for doing its job.

All in all.. EXPECT change to produce a whole new you and never be surprised by the things it brings to the surface..

This is more than weight loss this is about Recovery!

Here’s to the Next 21 Days!

After I posted this on the forum a news.com.au came onto my news feed on facebook

http://www.news.com.au/lifestyle/health-fitness/being-thin-is-no-fairytale/story-fneuz9ev-1226606989848

 I’m a firm believer that I have a very good intuition and sixth sense.. but who knew the tabloids were connected to my vibe!